Will you send a happy birthday message for my mom if we are still together now?
I accidentally found our last chats while searching for my mom's old photos.
And it broke my heart into pieces all over again, as if I never learned my lesson.
It's my mom's birthday today. How are you?
Do you still remember the first time you talked to my mom in my aunt's living room? She's a sweet person, right? I feel like I asked you a question about what you think of my mom, but I don't remember now because our old conversations have continued to fade away.
She's getting old now. I feel sad whenever I remember that my parents are all getting older. I wish I could tell you how I feel right now, like I used to.
I was planning to make a cute Instagram story to congratulate my mom. Instead, I found our last conversations—those painful chats which I have read several times and even now succeed in breaking me into pieces again.
Do you still feel empty and scared whenever you remember me? I wish you knew that all I did was tell you my feelings; I was far from blaming you. But I guess I was never perfect. Maybe I should have worded it better, maybe I should have put more emojis, maybe I shouldn't have said it at all.
It has been so hard for me, because even my mom knows my pain. But I hope you know that none of us dislike you. We still see you as the person who talked with my mom in the living room that day. I might still bear the pain, but I never hate you. That is how I learned how deep my love is. And I am glad that I have that kind of love towards you. It's genuine.
Anyway, how is your sweet mom? I hope she is healthy. I never get a chance to interact with her. Our time together is far too short; I still have many things on my list that I unfortunately have not been able to fulfill.
Funny how I told everyone that one of these articles is my last medium for you, yet I find myself writing about you again.
So hey, will you send a happy birthday message for my mom if we are still together now?
