If this is how you want it to end.
I found myself praying to God, asking Him to take away my love for you. Because to let you go, I can’t just cut off the leaves and trunks; the root has to be pulled up too, or else it still has a chance to keep growing. It’s a strong tree to begin with. It continues to grow even after all those cuttings.
How can I enjoy my time when, whenever I go out somewhere, my eyes scan the crowd, searching for you? At first, it made me excited at the possibility. But now, fear has crept in. What if I do find you, with your arms wrapped around someone new?
I’ve given all the signs that I still wait for you to run back to me. You’ve seen those signs too, and yet you did nothing. I guess it is what it is. That’s why, if this is how our story ends, I wish God would take away my love for you. This love is far too fearful because you choose not to return it anymore.
I’m afraid that I have to feel all the pain alone. I have to witness your name no longer on the list of people who view my stories on social media; I have to see you changing your style as you grow older through your coworkers’ pictures; I have to see you graduate, surrounded by people I know nothing about; and then, I have to experience the sorrow of seeing you with a new girl.
Therefore, if this is how our story ends, I beg you—since I am unable to do it: block me.
Everywhere. If you have no plan to come back to me. If this is how you want our story to end. If you no longer like the idea of us getting back together, then please block me, at least for my sake.
Make me forget about you. Erase your trace from my life. Please. It’s impossible for me because my love for you keeps growing, so maybe it’s possible if you’re the one doing it.
It’s hypocritical of me, I know. I am afraid of no longer knowing anything about you completely, and yet here i am begging you to do this. Because it will happen anyway.
Cut down that tree of love; don’t let it grow anymore. Since you’re the one who ended it, why don’t you erase your trace from my life?
If you can’t, if you too, unable to do it; then why? why don’t you give us another chance? Why ignoring my sign?
Don’t bring hope to me. I am way too hopeful when it comes to you.
I beg you. Be the one who makes the move.
