Dear God, how do i detach myself from the love of my life?
I have within me the capability to be shattered by my own expectations countless times.
When will I ever learn to detach myself from him?
It is hard for me to separate love from attachment, but I have to learn how to do it. Otherwise, I will shatter again and will never be whole as I once was.
But God, how do I detach myself from someone I love dearly? How do I finally let him go, free him for himself, and free him from myself?
I yearn for him. I liked it best when he was with me. I don’t know whether my prayers will be granted or if I have to wait for You to replace him with someone better for me. But You are the All-Knowing, so You already know what my heart wants.
Please be gentle, as my heart is in its most fragile state ever. Reveal the truth in the most soothing way, while my heart slowly gains its strength.
When it comes to him, I always feel like I can put everything down, open myself to vulnerability, and let him ruin my state of mind.
I am afraid that the only way to fix this is by bringing him back to me.
But what if he doesn’t want that? How much time must I wait until my heart detaches from him? How many days must I wait until my heart no longer beats for him?
